Super discouraged now.

Stop patronizing me. Right, like I know I'm supposed to be solely responsible for the plight I'm in now.

I don't know if it's really my fault or something. Let's just assume it is.

You think you'll understand how I feel? You don't. I go to school attempting to be a studious mugger and after school hours only one thing fills my head. And nobody's gonna be there to make decisions for me.

SO? I make them myself. So what happens if there are varying views the next day? Well done, start from scratch.

I tell you, I hate things when there're super disorganised and everybody tries to do something but the PRODUCT IS NOTHING.

I'm not undermining anybody's efforts. I acknowledge and thank all for their efforts and commitment. But in the end I hear more than 3 voices advising me on the same issue with 3 extreme views. So? Nobody decides on anything. We prefer to leave things hanging eh. With a tinge of doubt comes mystery.

Thanks a lot. I make the decisions. Then nobody comments on the decisions I make and still prefer to leave things hanging there.

I feel like I'm punishing myself.

Go ahead, laugh at my stupidity. I too feel that I deserve it.

And go on saying that you understand what I'm feeling. No you don't.

I must again re-emphasize this: Some people feel but they don't understand. Some people understand but they don't feel.

Okay, leave me alone.